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Sensation before a kiss and my Sanity !

June 20, 2008 – 1:14 pm

Duh…what a stupid title..lol. Yeah its something personal about this “T”.

I was sleeping as usual uptil now in the morning, am an insomniac (nights are better than days). Then felt as if someone was over my back giving warmth. Lol…I woke up and saw that the girl (I have already written about it before), who is in love with me, but am not in love with her, was rubbing against me. She took the advantage that my mother was washing clothes in the bathroom.

She intimated her intention soon,  wanted to feel me (don’t think anything ugly here). She wanted to collect those few moments,  wanted to kiss me. I was like wtf ? What am i gonna do ? Should the devil inside me take the opportunity or should I shook her away from me? I decided to remain neutral…for good…ehh. She started caressing me with her lips all over face (i was hiding my face with pillow for my sake). Then came to the lips, need I say my heart was pounding and I forgot the sleep. She then touched her lips to mine, heavenly feeling, I must say that. She wasn’t hard on me, not forcing me to go more intimate, was expecting the same reaction from me and then may be lip lock.

But naah - said my mind, “its not your cup of coffee if you can’t take care and promise her in return, you don’t love her T so why would you dare to go beyond this point? Hold back your horses and be passive, at least you don’t have to regret for your actions later”. I followed my mind and didn’t respond at all to her intimate moves, hid my lips with pillow and went into a deep sleep again. By the time my mom was also done with washing clothes and that saved me

I think I made a right decision, of course I have told her before that I don’t love her but she won’t listen. Now only if I remain passive the things will remain normal.