So lonely !
July 2, 2008 – 4:24 amAll are gone. Still I am here. Engineering got completed, I got placed but still I am not happy at heart. While everyone looked quite excited about the whole lot of opportunities they will get in corporate world, I was thinking will we ever get to see each other soon. My project partener’s left yesterday, one is joining Infosys and other Krawler networks within this month. Is that all ? The hardest part in life is to bid goodbye to someone. A lot changes within a week. Everything got overturned.
This corporate world will swallow me soon too. I have started sensing a change in me, everyone is expecting me to earn, to start a career. Only I know that it isn’t worth, but I have to just for the sake of survival and to give in return the ones who cared about me and helped me to the place where I am now. Even though money isn’t what I craved for but it has started to cling to my life. My website got dumped for a while, just because I was out of money. Now its really bad on my part to ask for it from my brother. I decided to do the thing that I never wanted to. I put up Google ads on my site to make some bucks so that this website will remain up, after all its the only portal through which I can speak out. Though I don’t expect anyone to help me out of generosity.
One day I’ll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
I wish I could have told that girl about my feelings too. My subconscious mind accepted the feelings but I was hesitant to follow it. Life is Moulin Rouge, it starts with dangling diamonds then comes the dragging mid and lastly you succumb to it.
Don’t let life consume you
It could eat you up inside
Can you see the human spirit?
Tell me why should I have to hide
And with my heart in my hand
And with my hand upon my heart
And with my heart in my hand
It’s not like we planned
Don’t betray your lover
You will just betray yourself
Can you see the human spirit?
Is there emptiness inside
And with my heart in my hand
And with my hand upon my heart
And with my heart in my hand
It’s not like we planned
Can you see the human spirit?
Is there emptiness inside
Can you see the human spirit?
Is there loneliness inside
7 Responses to “So lonely !”
I am very sad to read this post… I want the wonderfully happy and funny that you are!! I really would want help you, to make you feel better…
’cause if you are feeling lonely and sad, I’m feeling so, too.
*A BIG HUG AND A HUGE KISS WITH ALL MY HEART*
By Smallstar on Wed 02nd Jul, 2008
Hey, don’t worry, dude… Friends come and go in life, but its only those special ones that stay with us forever… Don’t lose heart… All the best in starting your career… I hope everything turns out good…
It’s never too late to say the things you’ve always wanted to say to the special girl in your life… Go ahead and tell her.. 
By Nikhil on Wed 02nd Jul, 2008
Man, after reading your post i r feeling sad too. Well don’t loose contacts with friends & her. Life is long you will surely meet again. Best of luck.
By Quiz_master on Thu 03rd Jul, 2008
Well I’ve been through this last year. Well it feels like you’ve lost your wealth- whatever you earned in your life.
Dude say what’s in your heart to that girl. Atleast you’ll never have this burden that you didn’t even tell her. Go ahead & good luck!
By Rajbir Singh on Thu 03rd Jul, 2008
@Smallstar
Am feeling a lot better now :p
@Nikhil
Guess I have to be somewhat professional to do this.
@Quiz_Master
Yeah am trying to contact my friends, lets see how this work out.
@Rajbir Singh
It happens everytime, with time I lost the touch with my friends.Some are not what they were before.
Am trying my best to tell that girl, will tell you all about the outcome.
By T on Sun 06th Jul, 2008
Abey emo!
Engg got over, that’s the best thing that could have happened. The peace and ease of mind that once this crap is over outweighs the sadness of not meeting friends everyday!
By Manan on Sun 06th Jul, 2008
@Yeah good, u reminded me the Jailbreak days :p
Guess I wont loose net friends
By T on Fri 11th Jul, 2008